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Snow Angel by Diana Bold
Snow Angel By Diana Bold
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. Snow Angel Copyright© 2007 Diana Bold ISBN: 978‐1‐60088‐204‐3 Cover Artist: Melissa Findley Editor: Leanne Salter All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced electronically or in print without written permission, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in reviews. Cobblestone Press, LLC www.cobblestone‐press.com
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Dedication To Leanne Karella for being a great editor and a kindred spirit. Thanks for everything.
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Chapter One December 15, 1871 – Northern New Mexico Zach Price hadn’t been this close to a woman in five years. The time he’d spent in prison had robbed him of many things, and he’d often wondered if the ability to feel passion and desire had been among them. Apparently not. As the rocking motion of the stagecoach brought the woman’s knees into contact with his own once again, he wished he were as unfeeling as he’d thought. The stirring in his groin was an inconvenient, painful reminder that he’d never again know the softness of a woman’s body against his. The manacles on his hands and feet, and the presence of the lean, sharp‐eyed lawman at his side, ensured it. With every bumpy mile, the stagecoach took him closer to Texas, where he’d spend the rest of his life in the same federal prison he’d escaped from two short weeks ago. If he’d known his freedom would be so fleeting, he’d have gotten stinking drunk and spent what time he had in the arms of some pretty whore. Instead, he’d kept to himself, living like a hunted animal, traveling at night, sleeping during the day, desperate to reach his brother in the Colorado Territory. He’d never expected the United States Marshal on his tail to get there first.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold Once again, his gaze returned to the woman sitting across from him. Understandably nervous about sharing the ride with a convicted killer, she had yet to look him in the eyes. Her lovely face was pale, and she looked exhausted. He wondered how long she’d been traveling, and why she’d boarded the coach alone, with no man to watch over her. Her vulnerable beauty enchanted him and, for a long moment, he entertained the possibility of taking her hostage when they stopped for the night. He could wrap his chained hands around her slim neck, press against her, use her as a shield to make his escape… Reluctantly, he discarded the notion. Despite the desperation clawing and twisting in the pit of his stomach, he hadn’t sunk to the point of involving an innocent bystander in the hopeless mess he’d made of his life. He shifted and turned his gaze out the window, noticing it had begun to snow. The sight cheered him. He hoped the weather delayed their journey. Even a few extra nights in a stage stop with Marshal Scott breathing down his neck would be preferable to returning to prison. “Where are you headed, ma’am?” The marshal spoke for the first time since they’d boarded the stage in Trinidad. “I’m going to Texas for Christmas,” she answered. Zach found himself leaning forward in an effort to hear her better. “I have family there.” She was even lovelier when she smiled, and he didn’t think his opinion was influenced by the fact that he’d been so long without a woman. She had delicate, classic features and expressive, wide, green eyes. Her hair was a rich, buttery gold, and her figure was trim, yet rounded in all the right places. He imagined he could even smell her; a light, flowery scent that triggered a sudden, vivid memory of a girl he’d known in Virginia. Before the war. “We’re going to Texas, too,” the marshal informed her. “I’ll keep an eye out for you, ma’am. It’s not safe for a pretty little thing like you to be traveling all by yourself.” An embarrassed blush tinged the girl’s pale cheeks. “That’s kind of you, sir. But really, I’m sure I’ll be just fine. I’ve come all the way from
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold Denver already.” She glanced in Zach’s direction and, for just a moment, her clear, green gaze caught and held his. Unmistakable trepidation shadowed those emerald depths. She probably didn’t want anything to do with the marshal as long as he had a dangerous criminal like Zach in tow. The marshal also obviously understood the reason for her reticence. “Don’t worry none about him, ma’am. I’ve got the situation well under control. He’s harmless as a Christmas goose trussed up in those shackles.” The girl stared at the metal bracelets around Zach’s wrists and ankles. She met his gaze again, and this time he saw more sympathy than fear. “Are those dreadful things necessary?” “Yes, ma’am,” the marshal answered. “As I said, he’s harmless enough as long as he’s chained. But make no mistake. He’s a bad ’un. Killed some men in Texas a few years back, then managed to escape from prison. Took me two weeks to track him down, and I don’t intend to lose him again.” Zach forced his features to remain impassive, even though he burned with shame and anger at being discussed as though he were deaf and dumb. He didn’t know why he cared what this woman thought of him, but for some reason he wanted to shout a denial. He wanted to try to explain the circumstances that had led him so far from the life he’d once expected to live. The coach shuddered then gave a precarious lurch. Zach tore his gaze away from the girl to glance back out the window then wished he hadn’t. The snow was falling much harder now than just a few moments ago, and the road dropped off into a deep ravine on his side of the coach. They seemed to be heading right for the edge. “Shit,” he muttered, trying to brace himself, but unable to do so because of the shackles. “What the hell…?” The marshal half rose from his seat and opened the door, as though he meant to ask the driver what was going on. He never got the chance. The horses gave an ear‐piercing squeal, and then the coach tipped, tumbling off the edge of the cliff, crashing end over end into the ravine.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold * * * * * Bethany Sinclair awakened to the unfamiliar feel of a man’s heavy body sprawled atop her. She gave a frantic shove but couldn’t dislodge the smothering weight. Gasping for breath as panic coursed through her, she glanced about, trying to figure out why everything looked so odd and unfamiliar. Where was she? What on earth had happened? A horrible, discordant sound shattered the stillness—the sound of an animal in pain. The man groaned and lifted his head. When she recognized the dangerously handsome face hovering just inches above her own, she struggled even harder. The prisoner from the coach. There had been an accident, and now she was pinned beneath him. “Get off me.” Terror laced her voice as all her efforts to remove him went in vain. He was too big, too heavy. “Calm down.” He shifted, relieving her of most of his weight, yet keeping her pinned where she lay in the shattered remnants of the coach. “I’m not going to hurt you.” A bloody gash marred his forehead, and his blue eyes were cloudy with pain. She tried to relax, remembering the kind marshal who’d befriended her before the wreck. He would help her. He wouldn’t allow this criminal to do her any harm. “Where’s everyone else?” “I don’t know.” He scanned the immediate area with sudden purpose. His lean body tensed as he realized the lawman was nowhere in sight. Dear God. He was a killer. An escaped convict. To what lengths might he go to keep from being taken back to prison? His gaze returned to her face, but his eyes were sharper now, more focused. “Are you hurt?” “I can’t tell.” She was surprised he cared enough to ask. “You’re crushing me. Everything hurts.” He frowned and rolled all the way off her. The awkwardness of his
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold movements reminded her he was still shackled. She scrambled away, wincing when a shaft of pain shot up her left leg. Her skirts were wadded around her knees, and she stared in dismay at the jagged, four inch cut on her calf. The prisoner knelt at her side, looking concerned. “Is your leg broken?” She shook her head. It wasn’t broken, but it bled profusely. She trembled as she realized how lucky she was to be alive. “Damn.” He stared at her for a long moment then got to his feet and pulled himself out of the scattered wreckage of the coach, having a hard time of it because of his bound ankles. She watched as he disappeared from view, unsure whether to be relieved or frightened. Where were the others? With shaking hands, she tore off a length of her petticoat to use as a bandage, trying to ignore the pained squeals of the horses. It was hard going, but at last she managed to rip off enough to bind her calf. Once she’d accomplished the task, she dragged herself out of what remained of the coach, gasping in dismay when a blast of snow carried by an icy wind buffeted her. Halfway up the steep hill, the prisoner stood over the twisted, bloody body of the man who’d been trying to bring him back to justice. The marshal had obviously been thrown from the coach as it began to roll. From the looks of him, the vehicle had crushed him. Bethany averted her gaze and swallowed to keep from retching. “He’s dead.” The prisoner’s voice was quiet and controlled, but she knew what this meant to him. Freedom. “What about the driver?” Bethany asked, even though she was afraid she already knew the answer. The prisoner pointed to another spot a few dozen yards away. “His neck’s broken.” As he spoke, he leaned down and rifled through the marshal’s pockets. He found what he’d been looking for—the key to his shackles and a pistol. Bethany stared at the gun, her blood freezing in her veins as he
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold walked toward her. If he killed her now, his escape was assured. She stumbled backward, her injured leg aching in protest. Shaking her head, she lifted her gaze from the gun to the man. He was dangerously beautiful, with inky black, overlong hair, and chiseled features. His blue eyes were shuttered, impossible to read. “Please,” she whispered. “You said you wouldn’t hurt me.” He stopped just a few feet in front of her and extended his hands. The key he’d taken from the marshal’s pocket dangled from between his thumb and forefinger. Up close, she could see how the handcuffs had abraded the skin around his wrists. He said nothing, just held out his hands. She considered refusing, but what good would it do? If he meant to kill her, he could do it with his hands bound. So far, he’d done nothing to harm her. Perhaps once he was free, he’d make his escape. Then all she’d have to worry about was how to survive the night—alone, bleeding, and stranded in the middle of a blizzard with no shelter. Trembling, she took the key and fitted it into the lock. The handcuffs fell away with a click, and he was a prisoner no longer. He brushed her cheek with his icy fingertips, stunning her with his tenderness. His blue eyes were startlingly bright amidst his dark features, and snowflakes had caught in his long, inky lashes. “Thank you.” She shivered. “What are you going to do now?” Frowning, he took the key from her and stooped to unlock the chain around his ankles. “I won’t go back to prison. But I won’t let you freeze, either.” He stood, looking around at the twisted wreckage. “There were some lap blankets in the coach, weren’t there?” Bethany nodded, eager to help. “There were some sack lunches, too.” “Smart girl.” A brief smile touched the perfection of his full lips. “Find them while I put these poor horses out of their misery. I’ll help you get out of the weather before I leave. Don’t worry. I’m sure someone will come looking when the stage doesn’t show up on time.”
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “Will they?” She doubted their stage’s tardiness would cause much concern. At least not for quite a while. They’d expect a delay and probably wouldn’t mount a rescue until the weather cleared. “They’ll come.” His voice was grim as he moved toward the horses that lay in a broken, jumbled heap, caught in their traces. “They knew I was on board.” He was a killer, she reminded herself. The marshal had told her so. But as she watched the prisoner soothe the terrified, injured horses, she found she no longer feared him.
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Chapter Two Zach left the woman bundled up in blankets, tucked in a semi‐sheltered corner of the shattered stage. But the last time he’d looked over his shoulder, she’d been shaking uncontrollably, both from the force of the icy wind and the shock of her injury. He doubted she’d make it through the night. Although he knew he had to put as much distance as possible between himself and the wreck, thoughts of woman haunted him as he plunged forward through the increasingly violent storm. He told himself he couldn’t afford to care. The wreck was a second chance he didn’t deserve, and he’d be a fool to let the opportunity pass by for the sake of a woman he didn’t even know. Besides, there was no certainty he’d survive the storm. The wind had turned into a howling banshee, whipping through the canyon without mercy. The stinging snow blinded him, and the adrenaline that had carried him through the last hour faded as the cold wrapped him in its icy fingers. It took him forever to stumble a few hundred yards. Exhausted, he leaned against the canyon wall, finding a narrow crevice, which offered some protection from the unrelenting wind. As he turned to put his back to the weather, he realized it wasn’t a crack, but the entrance to a cave. The crevice widened for about six feet, and then he found himself in a large chamber. Pulling out a box of matches he’d rescued from the wreck, he lit one and stared at his surroundings. A smaller tunnel at the back led
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold to another chamber, but he found no signs of animal occupation. The cave was empty and dry with a soft, sandy floor—a perfect place to wait out the storm. In fact, if he could find some wood for a fire, the cave would be more comfortable than the prison cell where he’d spent the last five years. Lady Luck had smiled on him more during the last two hours than she had in his entire life. But how could he stay here, snug and warm, while the woman who’d freed him from those damned shackles froze to death less than a mile away? “Damn.” He slammed his fist against the rough stone wall, knowing the answer. He had to go back for her. Too many deaths already haunted him. He couldn’t buy his freedom at further cost to his soul. He’d bring her back here, then leave once the storm broke. Still cursing beneath his breath, he turned up his collar and plunged back out into the storm. * * * * * Bethany drifted in and out of sleep, each time caring less and less if she ever woke again. Numb and lethargic, she could no longer feel the cold or pain. Her dreams were odd and ephemeral, filled with images of a dark, handsome man who carried her in his arms and begged her not to leave him. * * * * * Zach stumbled into the main room of the cave, his shoulders, back and arms aching from his heavy burden. He’d feared he would be unable to find the entrance a second time and thanked God for the first time in longer than he cared to remember for granting him this miracle. Sinking to his knees, he lowered the girl to the ground. She looked like a snow angel, her golden hair white with ice, her lovely face deathly pale. Leaning over her, he placed his fingertips above
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold her heart and tried to discern whether she still breathed. Damn, he hoped he hadn’t let too much time pass before he’d gone back for her. It was full dark now, so he figured at least four hours had passed since the wreck. Four hours she’d spent bleeding in the cold. “Wake up,” he whispered, his voice ragged. “Don’t you dare die on me, darlin’.” He shook her, and her lips parted on a soft moan. Relieved, he sank back on his heels and ran a trembling hand across his scruffy jaw. Exhaustion made his limbs heavy and weak, and he wanted nothing more than to lie down beside the girl and sleep. Luckily, he was still lucid enough to realize the danger they faced. He fumbled with the makeshift pack he’d made out of the blankets and drew out a few splintered pieces of wood from the coach and the rest of the sack lunches he’d gathered. It seemed to take forever to get a fire going, and once he did, he had to force himself to move away from it. He shed his wet, partially frozen clothes and replaced them with a scratchy wool blanket. The other three blankets served to form a pallet beside the fire. Then he turned back to the girl, glad for the chill when he considered the task that lay ahead. She remained passive as a rag doll while he stripped away her wet, bloody clothes and left her clad in nothing but the serviceable white chemise she wore beneath them. The bandage on her leg was crimson, soaked through, and he carefully peeled it away, frowning as fresh blood welled from the wound. Using a handful of snow, he cleaned the gash as best he could, then rewrapped it with another scrap of her dress. Finished with the most pressing matters, he pulled her into his arms and crawled beneath the damp blankets. Staring into the dancing flames, he forced himself to resist the temptation of closing his eyes and recalling the image of the girl’s lush breasts and long, slim legs. It was difficult, since those luscious curves and silky limbs were pressed intimately against him. Desire chased away the icy chill, but the painful surge of blood to
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold his groin was almost as uncomfortable. He brushed a lock of hair from her eyes, tracing her features with a tenderness he’d forgotten he possessed. God, it felt good to have someone to take care of. His warmth slowly took the chill from the girl’s skin. Soon, she was shivering against him, making soft, incoherent sounds as she snuggled even closer. He bit his lip and endured the sweet torture, wondering if it would have been easier to fall down in the snow and let the blizzard take him. * * * * * Bethany dreamed she was safe and sound in her husband David’s strong arms, before his illness had left him rail thin and weak as a kitten. He cradled her against him, spoon fashion, his warm chest pressed against her back, his arm around her waist, holding her tight. She’d been cold for so long, but now she was toasty warm. With a sleepy sigh, she snuggled closer, wishing she never had to awaken, wishing the dream could go on forever. It seemed an eternity since she’d last been touched, and she reveled in the texture of his bare skin next to hers. His breath hitched as she shifted against his groin, letting the hot, heavy weight of his erection settle between the rounded curves of her bottom. Even at his healthiest, she couldn’t remember David ever being quite so…large. Pressing his lips against her neck, he trailed his hand up her midsection before cupping her breast. “Christ, darlin’,” he whispered, his voice ragged with need. “Please tell me you’re awake.” It was wrong, all wrong. The voice didn’t belong to David, nor did the beard‐stubbled chin brushing her neck. The hand was too big, and so was the… Wrenching away, she scrambled to her knees, then gasped at the sudden pain streaking through her calf. Clasping her wounded leg, she glanced wildly around, taking in the fire, the cave, and the naked outlaw
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold who’d held her. His bare chest gleamed in the flickering light, and his dark hair brushed his wide shoulders. Even through her terror, she couldn’t help noticing that his body was a work of art; all lean muscles and bronzed skin. As she stared, he covered himself with the blanket she’d dislodged, hiding his arousal. Swallowing, she forced herself to meet his intense blue gaze. “What happened? Why am I here with you?” He shrugged and looked away. “The blizzard got worse. I found this cave, but I couldn’t stay here knowing you wouldn’t make it through the night. So I went back for you.” He came back for me. All she remembered was the biting cold, and the certainty she was going to freeze to death. She’d been so numb, unable to fight sleep any longer. Her fear seeped away, leaving amazed confusion. “You saved my life.” “I couldn’t leave you there. And I’m sorry for this…” He waved a hand at the pallet beside him. “But I couldn’t think of any other way to warm you up.” She glanced down at her leg and saw that he’d also rebandaged her wound. “Thank you. I don’t know how I can ever repay you.” “There’s no need.” He pushed himself to a sitting position and handed her one of the blankets. “It’s the first decent thing I’ve done in years.” She wrapped the blanket around her shoulders and wondered what to make of him. Should she be grateful or terrified? “What’s your name?” “Zach,” he answered, seeming as baffled by her actions as she was by his. “Zach Price.” “Bethany Sinclair.” “Bethany.” He gave her a tentative smile. “Nice name. Soft and sweet, just like you.” Heat rushed to her cheeks, and she glanced away. She didn’t know what to make of his compliment, given the fact she’d lain in his arms just moments ago. He’d held her to keep her warm, but she couldn’t stop
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold remembering how nice it had felt to be warm and cherished once again. “Can you pass me my pants? Beside you. On that rock.” Nodding, she reached for the wool trousers he’d stretched out to dry beside her dress and cloak her dress and cloak. “They’re still a bit damp,” she apologized, handing them over. Their hands brushed, and her gaze flew to his, awareness skittering up and down her spine. She’d never been alone with a man other than her husband, David. And this man…this beautiful outlaw, had no reason to behave himself. “It’s all right. A little chill might be good for me right now.” Giving her a pointed look, he struggled to pull the wet wool up over his lean hips. His reference to his blatant arousal alarmed her, but within moments he’d accomplished his task and was on his feet, adding another piece of wood to the fire. “There’s some food over there by the wall, and I think I have enough wood to see us through another day. By then the storm should be over, and I’ll be on my way.” “I won’t tell anyone which way you’ve gone,” she assured him, crossing the cave to where the sack lunches were stacked against the wall. “Not after all you’ve done for me.” “I appreciate that, darlin’. They’ll catch up to me sooner or later, but I don’t intend to make it easy for them.” She shivered, remembering the last time he’d called her by the sweet endearment, when his hand had been on her breast and every inch of him had been pressed intimately against her. Forcing the thought away, she grabbed two of the bags and moved back toward the fire. The cave sheltered them from the wind, but it was far from warm. “Would you like something to eat?” She passed him one of the bags and then peered inside her own, finding an apple, a piece of chocolate cake wrapped in waxed paper, and a ham sandwich. Her stomach rumbled, and she wondered what time it was. Midnight, at least. They ate in silence, but she felt him watching her. His intense regard made it difficult to swallow the dry sandwich. She wished they had something to drink but figured if they got desperate, they could always melt some snow.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold The long night loomed before her, and she decided that finding something to drink was the least of her worries.
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Chapter Three As Zach ate his meal, he watched Bethany across the small fire. He couldn’t figure her out. Why hadn’t she run screaming in terror? He was a felon, a murderer, yet she’d treated him as though he were the preacher come for Sunday supper. Christ, she’d been like heaven in his arms, pushing against him so sweetly, cradling the rigid length of his cock between the soft curves of her ass as though she’d wanted him there. He’d kissed her neck and cupped her breast and almost came on the spot. It had been so long… In fact, he hadn’t been with a woman since his wife, Hannah, had been killed. He’d made himself crazy in prison, trying to remember the last time they’d made love. Had it been a day before her death, or a week? He should remember the last time, but he couldn’t. Forcing thoughts of Hannah away, he concentrated once again on his companion. He’d done a lot of bad things in his life, but he figured planning how to seduce this sweet girl ranked right up there with the murders he’d committed. Higher, really, since the men he’d killed were rapists and killers and had deserved to die. But if he must burn for his sins, he decided he might as well commit one that was worth it. Was it so wrong to try and grab a few moments of tenderness and bliss before he went to ground again, hunted like the animal he’d become? Finished with his meal, he threw the paper sack into the fire, watching the flames kick up for as second as they devoured it. “How’s
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold your leg?” She gave him a startled glance. “It throbs. But I don’t think it’s bleeding any more.” “Good. I worried when I saw your bandage had soaked through.” She shivered a bit and drew the blanket tighter around her shoulders. “I’m still cold. But I feel much better now that I’ve eaten.” Her words gave him the opening he was looking for. “We should try to get some sleep. If we lie beside each other and share the blankets we should stay warm even if the fire goes out.” “Can I trust you?” Her imploring gaze made him feel like the biggest cad who’d ever lived. “Promise me I can trust you, Zach.” Shit. It had been an eternity since someone had trusted him, since someone had believed there was even an ounce of goodness in him. “Yeah,” he mumbled, knowing her trust was the one thing he couldn’t betray. “You can trust me.” She gave him a tentative smile and remade the pallet, smoothing the heavy blankets until they were neat. Blushing, she slid beneath the top three. With a sigh, he got to his feet, wishing he could take off the damp trousers. But they would serve as a necessary shield, so he supposed he could bear the discomfort. He stoked the fire then crawled into bed beside her. An entire foot of space yawned between them. For endless moments neither of them moved, and the crackling flames sounded loud in the tense silence. “When I woke up in your arms, I thought you were my husband, David.” She turned to face him in the flickering light. “He died a year ago. Of tuberculosis. That’s why we moved to Colorado. The doctors said the air would be good for his lungs.” Hearing the pain in her voice, he reached out and pulled her into his arms, offering the only comfort he could. “Ah, darlin’, I’m sorry.” She snuggled close, as though she’d wanted his arms around her all along. “I’ve missed this. Being so close to someone, close enough to hear a heartbeat. Since David died I’ve been so cold, so alone.” He hugged her tight, her words striking a chord deep within him. “I know. My wife died five years ago.”
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “Were you angry with her?” she asked. “Were you angry with her for leaving you all alone?” Zach shook his head in denial. “No, I was angry with myself. For not being there when she needed me.” Bethany stared at her handsome companion in the flickering light, stunned by his soft confession. She wondered if he meant his wife had died while he was in prison. Whatever the circumstances, his grief was real. The pain in his eyes convinced her he’d once loved a woman with fierce devotion. With each passing moment, she found it harder to believe he was a killer. Though she knew it was foolish, she longed to believe he was a good man. Reaching up, she traced his lean jaw, discovering the dark stubble shadowing his beautiful face was surprisingly soft. “Don’t blame yourself. I’m sure she knew how much you loved her.” He closed his eyes and pressed his cheek against her palm. “Did she? I didn’t even know myself until she was gone.” She inched closer, wrapping her arms around his neck, only to shift back when her feet encountered his damp trousers. He couldn’t be comfortable, and she knew he was enduring the cold in order to protect her modesty. She bit her lip, wondering if she dare suggest he take them off. What harm could it do? If he meant to have her, one layer of damp material wouldn’t stop him. And she didn’t want him to become ill. She didn’t care what laws he’d broken; he’d saved her life, and she didn’t want him to go back jail. “Your trousers are soaked,” she murmured, gathering her courage. “You’ll get sick if you don’t take them off.” He opened his eyes, surprise shimmering in those deep blue depths. “Aren’t you afraid of me?” “You said I could trust you,” she reminded him, feeling reckless. For some reason she did trust him. So far, he’d been far more of a gentleman than she had any right to expect. “Thank you, darlin’. You don’t know how much that means to me.”
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold He caught her hand in his and pressed a swift kiss to the center of her palm, sending a wave of heat up her arm to center with pulsating urgency in the pit of her stomach. “Would you turn around?” She rolled on her side, facing the fire as he sat up and fumbled with his trousers. The cold air brushed her backside as the blankets shifted, but he finished quickly and then pulled her against his chest, holding her tight as shivers wracked his big body. “Much better,” he whispered, his breath warm against her neck. “Is this all right? For me to hold you this way?” She nodded, too overwhelmed by his warmth and strength to object. He held her as though she was precious to him. As though he cared for her. Tears stung her eyes as she realized how much she’d needed this. To be held, to be touched, to be treated as a flesh and blood woman after so many years of being a sick man’s nurse and then a dead man’s widow. “Do you know what I missed most during all those years in prison?” He brushed a few strands of her hair away from her cheek, his touch gentle and unthreatening. “I missed having someone to talk to. I missed those conversations Hannah and I had when we were alone in bed together, after all the chores of the day were through. Would you talk to me for awhile, darlin’?” Her heart melted. His soft admission touched her deeply. “Of course. But I don’t know what to say.” “Tell me about yourself, your family, the weather. Hell, I don’t care. I just want to listen to your sweet voice and pretend…” He trailed off, then gave an uncomfortable laugh. He wanted to pretend she was his wife. The words hung unspoken between them, but she wasn’t upset. She could do this for him. It was the least she could do, given all he’d done for her. “I grew up in Boston,” she began, her words slow and halting. “My father owns a shipping company. My mother died when I was very young.” “I’m sorry,” he murmured as he ran his fingers through her hair and smoothed away the tangles with painstaking patience. It felt wonderful, and she struggled to keep from sighing in sheer bliss.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “I was three when she passed away,” she continued, trying to keep her mind focused on the small talk he’d requested. “I have an older brother, Samuel. He runs father’s company now. And my younger sister, Caroline, is married to an Army captain and lives in Austin. I’m on my way to visit her for awhile.” “How long has it been since you last saw your sister?” “Goodness, five years or more. I haven’t seen her since David and I moved to Colorado.” “He was sick for a long time?” “For so long I can’t remember a time when he wasn’t.” It was true. She couldn’t remember the laughing young man she’d fallen in love with. He’d been replaced by the bitter, dying man who’d done his best to make her life as miserable as his own. “We were married for seven years, but he became sick after the first one.” “You never had any children?” She shook her head. “I wanted a baby, especially when I realized I was going to lose David. But it never happened. I think I’m barren.” He trailed his hand down her arm and let it rest upon her belly. “You’re still young. Maybe it was him, not you.” “Maybe,” she whispered, choking with despair over all the things she’d lost. “But what man would want me now? I’m almost thirty.” “Closer to twenty‐five, I’d guess. And I don’t know what man wouldn’t want you, Bethany. You’re so damn pretty I’m about to die from wanting you.” Her name was a gentle caress from his lips. He shifted, and she gasped as he pressed against her, showing her what he meant. Sudden panic streaked through her, and she tried to move away, but he caught her easily, holding her as she struggled, his breath harsh and erratic in her ear. “Easy now. Don’t run away. I won’t hurt you. I would never do anything you didn’t want me to do.” That was the problem, she realized as she stilled. She feared she wanted the same things he did. And no one would ever have to know. She’d never see him again, come morning. For long moments they remained frozen, locked in an intimate embrace, while crazy thoughts raced through her mind. He’d been in
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold prison for years, she reminded herself. Years without a woman to hold or touch. Of course, he wanted her. He’d have wanted any woman in this situation. But she wanted him, too. She wanted the freedom to run her hands across his beautiful, lean body. She wanted to touch a man who was strong and healthy, one who was capable of bringing her pleasure and respite from the sorrow and sickness that had become her life. “Are you all right?” His voice was a rough whisper in her ear. “Do you want me to let you go? Because I will, if you want me to.” And those words sealed her fate. He was stronger than her; she was entirely at his mercy. He didn’t have to ask; he could have taken. But because he’d offered her the choice, she chose him. She shifted onto her back and stared up at him, hoping she wasn’t making the biggest mistake of her life. Still, she had to know one thing before she went any further. “Those men you killed—did you have a good reason?” He gave her a long, searching look. “Do you consider vengeance a good reason?” “Vengeance?” She cupped his cheek with her palm. “What happened to you?” “I had a small homestead, nothing special except I owned the rights to the only good water source for miles around. A rancher tried to buy it from me, but I refused. He started sending hired guns to pressure me. They killed my stock, burned my outbuildings, and even threatened my life. I’d come through four years of hell, fighting in the war, and that little plot of land meant the world to me. I wasn’t going to give it up without a fight.” He scrubbed his hand over his chin, tension riddling his lean frame. She sensed it had been a long time since he’d talked about this. In fact, this might be the first time he ever had. “Go on,” she coaxed. “I put off taking my cattle to market for as long as I could. But I needed the money, so I had to go. I thought they’d come after me, kill the rest of my stock on the trail, but I arrived without incident. I didn’t realize my mistake until I got home… I never thought they’d go after my family, but while I was gone, they raped and killed my wife, Hannah. They shot
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold my little son, Jeremiah. They took everything I ever loved.” His voice trembled with emotion. “I went to the authorities, but no one would listen. The rancher owned the local sheriff. So I took matters into my own hands.” “Oh, Zach.” She ached for what he’d been through, couldn’t imagine the pain of knowing he’d failed to protect his family. “It wasn’t enough to kill them once. I’d do it again if I had the chance. Even if it means burning in hell for all eternity.” His words erased the last of her doubts. Deep down she’d known he wasn’t a bad man. Anyone who could show her such kindness had to have been driven into darkness by forces beyond his control. She buried her hands in his thick, silky hair and urged his head down toward hers. “Then kiss me. Make me forget the past. Make me forget everything except you and this moment.”
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Chapter Four Zach allowed Bethany to draw him down into the sweet warmth of her kiss as he reeled from her abrupt compliance. Her lips moved with butterfly softness over his, so chaste and tentative he could almost believe she’d never been kissed before. He didn’t understand how he’d gotten here, or what he’d done to deserve the angel in his arms, but he intended to make the most of it while he could. She obviously saw something worthwhile in him, and he wanted to take advantage of her mistake before she realized the truth—everything good in him had died long ago. With a soft moan of surrender, he took control of the kiss, cupping her face in his hands as he plundered her sweetness. She tasted of apples and innocence, everything soft and good that had been missing from his life for so long. Just this, he promised himself. Just her sweet kiss and nothing else. She’d given him this much; he’d be a bastard to try and take more. But oh, God, she felt so good. The thought of letting her go without making love to her was unbearable. After several breathless moments, she drew back and stared at him, her eyes wide and hazy with unmistakable arousal. “I’ve never been kissed like that before.” He brushed her hair from her eyes with a trembling hand. “Is that a compliment or a complaint?” “Oh, definitely a compliment.” She gave him an abashed grin.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “Would it be presumptuous to ask for another?” “Not if you promise to touch me while I kiss you.” All his promises to stop at a kiss vanished in the wake of her gentle teasing. “I want to feel your hands on me, darlin’.” Holding his gaze, she placed her hand on his chest, a knowing sparkle in her eyes. “Here? Or somewhere else?” “Lower,” he said, unable to believe his luck. “Lower, please.” Blushing, she trailed her fingertips down his chest. They drifted like rose petals across his belly and then grazed the length of his aching cock. He moaned and caught her lips with his, plunging his tongue deep within her honeyed mouth, mimicking what he’d like to do with the part of him she touched so tentatively. Incapable of bearing her sweet torture, he wrapped his own hand around hers, showing her how he liked it—hard and fast. She got the hang of it within moments, and he fell backward, breaking the kiss as the pleasure became too much, cresting with such force it curled his toes and made him cry out in sheer bliss. * * * * * Bethany propped herself up on one elbow, staring down at Zach with shocked wonder. She’d never watched a man fall apart so utterly. Even in the beginning, David had made love to her in the dark. Nothing more than a quick fumble beneath her nightdress. It had never occurred to her to touch her husband the way she’d just touched Zach, but she couldn’t deny she’d enjoyed it. He’d been silky smooth, yet incredibly hard in her hand. So alive and beautiful, so unashamed of his body and the pleasure she’d given him. He lay quiet now, one arm thrown across his eyes, his thick shaft still full and erect, angled across the muscular ridges of his lean stomach. “Are you all right?” she asked as the silence stretched out between them. “Ah, darlin’. I’m better than I’ve been in years.” He lowered his arm and met her gaze as he used a corner of the blanket to wipe himself clean.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “You don’t know how much I needed that.” She walked her fingertips up his chest, still amazed to think she could touch him however she wanted. “Oh, I think have some idea.” “Do you now?” Laughing, he rolled on top of her, pinning her beneath him as he covered her face with kisses. “Perhaps you need it, too. Is that it?” “Would that be wrong?” she asked. The teasing light left his eyes, and he shook his head. “No, darlin’. It wouldn’t be wrong at all.” Lowering his head, he kissed her again. A deep, drugging kiss like the ones they’d shared before. She lost herself in the taste and feel of him, trying to forget that tonight was all she’d ever have of him. It would have to be enough. It was more than she’d ever expected to have. One night of pleasure to keep her warm during all the long, lonely nights to come. Breaking the kiss, he trailed his lips down her throat. “I want to see you. Will you let me take off your shift?” She nodded, unable to speak as he pulled the flimsy garment over her head, baring her. Under his heated gaze, she felt so feminine, so desired. She tingled and yearned for more. “You’re so beautiful,” he whispered, grazing her nipples with the back of his hand. “I could look at you forever.” Then he lowered his dark head and made a feast of her breasts, licking, nibbling and suckling until she thought she’d die from sensual decadence. He continued to surprise her, showing her there was far more to lovemaking than her limited experience had ever suggested. David had never spent so much time ensuring her pleasure. Zach had already kissed her longer than David had ever made love to her. By the time he trailed his hand down her belly, she parted her thighs without the slightest hesitation. She trembled with arousal, aching to join with him. But instead of a quick prod to determine her readiness, he began a gentle exploration, using her body’s shameful reaction to ease his way as he slid one finger, and then two, into her teeming wetness.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold His thumb circled the hardened nub of sensation at the apex of her thighs while he continued to tease her breasts. She moaned, tossing her head in growing unease. She’d never felt this way before—as though she were on the verge of something terrifying and wonderful. “Let yourself go,” he whispered, releasing her nipple and kissing his way down her belly. “Come for me, darlin’.” When she realized what he planned to do, she tried to stop him, but he ignored her struggles and pressed his mouth to the spot where his thumb had just been, lashing her with his tongue until brilliant light exploded behind her eyelids, and she shattered in wordless ecstasy as a wave of unimaginable pleasure washed through her—over her. She sank back against the blanket, trying to catch her breath, her limbs heavy with sated bliss. So, that was what all the fuss was about. Until this very moment, she had never understood. “Oh, Zach,” she whispered when she regained her equilibrium. “That was so...wonderful.” He slid back up her body, staring down at her with stunning intensity. “Just wait until it happens when I’m deep inside you.” Before she had time to even imagine the possibilities, he reached between them and rubbed the tip of his hard shaft against her, making her sigh in pleasure. Holding her gaze, he thrust deep, seating himself to the hilt. “Ah, darlin’. You feel so good. So damn good.” Lowering his head, he kissed her again, a slow sweep of his tongue he mirrored with a thrust of his hips. Wrapping her legs around his lean waist, she pulled him even deeper, and lost herself in the magic of the moment. His shadowed past, her aching wound, the blizzard howling outside—all of it disappeared beneath the reality of his hard body thrusting within hers. He whispered soft endearments as the pleasure built to an overwhelming peak. The shattering explosion of bliss broke over her, even more spectacular than last time. Before her tremors faded, he gave a harsh, shuddering cry, cresting over her with a beautiful intensity she’d come to love so much. And as she
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold held him close in the aftermath, she knew she’d been wrong. She’d never get enough of him, not in one night. Not even in a thousand. * * * * * Zach knew he must be crushing Bethany, but he couldn’t bring himself to move. The last hour had been the most erotic, beautiful experience of his life. He kept expecting to wake up in a cell back in Texas and find out it had all been a dream. But even his dreams had never been this good. He’d loved Hannah, but she’d never enjoyed lovemaking. She’d always lain there with a long‐suffering look on her face, as though wishing he’d get it over with. After Jeremiah’s birth, he’d found himself relegated to once a month, if he was lucky. But Bethany… She’d been pure sweet fire in his arms. With every soft word and sigh, she’d let him know she’d taken as much pleasure in the act as he had. Given her unconcealed surprise and praise, he gathered her husband had never appreciated the bounty he’d been given. If she were his… He ruthlessly squashed the thought. Best not to even contemplate such impossibilities. How could he have forgotten, even for a moment, that he had no future and nothing to offer her? Christ, he was such a selfish son of a bitch. Sighing, he forced himself to roll off of her, though he kept her at his side, unwilling to let her go, even if it made him the biggest bastard who ever lived. It had been wrong to take advantage of her vulnerability, but he couldn’t be sorry. He’d needed her softness, needed to feel wanted more than he’d realized. Though now he was even more aware of the barren wasteland his life had become. “Are you all right?” he asked. “I didn’t hurt you, did I?” She gave a breathy laugh. “It was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever known. Thank you so much. I never knew it could be like that.” He hugged her tight. “I’m the one who should be thanking you. I
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold don’t deserve you. I should’ve been stronger.” “I wanted you,” she assured him. “I’ve been living for someone else my entire life. This is the first time I’ve ever done something just for me.” “I’m glad,” he whispered. “I’m so glad you don’t regret it.” She brushed her lips against his shoulder. “Getting in that wreck was the best thing to ever happen to me.” Her words were like a cool rain in the parched desert of his soul. He doubted she’d carry these feelings for him for long, but he was determined to soak them up while he could. Morning fast approached and, with it, the end of this idyllic interlude. “I wish things were different.” The dangerous thought spilled from his lips before he could stop it. “I wish I didn’t have to leave you.” She looked up at him, her big green eyes welling with tears. “I could wait for you.” “Ah, darlin’. Don’t say that. You’d be waiting forever. If they catch me, I’ll never get out. And I won’t take you with me on the run.” “But—” He pressed his fingertip to her lips, silencing any further protests. “Let’s just enjoy this for a few hours more. Don’t ruin it with ‘what ifs.’” A troubled frown wrinkled her beautiful brow, but she remained silent, curling into his arms and resting her cheek against his chest. Sighing, wishing for things which could never be, he pressed his lips against her silky hair and stared into the fire, trying to enjoy his last few hours of paradise.
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Chapter Five Zach dressed by the dim light of the flickering fire. His trousers were still damp, but he gritted his teeth and pulled them on, figuring they’d soon be even wetter. The pale glow of daylight had pierced the far corner of the cave hours ago, but Bethany had fallen asleep in his arms, and he hadn’t wanted to wake her. Then, about thirty minutes ago, she’d rolled away from him, onto her side, and he’d known he’d run out of excuses to stay. Besides, it would be easier this way. He couldn’t bear to look into her eyes and say good‐bye. He slid into his boots and stood, staring down at his lovely little snow angel for an endless moment, committing her features to memory. With a deep sigh, he turned away and trudged toward the narrow exit, stopping short when he realized the storm was far from over. They’d been well insulated in their cave. He didn’t hear the fury of the wind until he was halfway down the passageway. Standing a few feet back from the entrance, he stared out at the driving snow, which had intensified during the night. This was no simple winter storm—it was a blizzard of mammoth proportions. Relief surged through him when he realized it would be impossible for anyone to travel in such weather. Rescue wouldn’t come for days—if not weeks. His elation was short lived when he thought of their dwindling supply of firewood. It wouldn’t last through the day and, no matter how
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold appealing the prospect, it was going to take more than body heat to get them through the next few days. A shiver snaked down his spine as he contemplated his choices. The only solution seemed to be to trek back to the coach and gather as many supplies as he could. The weather was much worse than it had been yesterday afternoon, but it needed to be done. It wouldn’t take long, a few hours at the most, and then he could enjoy the rest of his time with Bethany in relative peace. Sighing, he turned his collar up to his ears and stepped out into the storm. * * * * * Bethany managed to control her tears and feign sleep while Zach dressed silently behind her. But the moment she was certain he’d left, she let them fall, great sobs of grief curling her into a tight ball of despair. She understood why he hadn’t said good‐bye—it would have been far too hard. Perhaps he’d sensed how much she wanted to cling to him and never let him go. In his arms she’d felt safe and cherished for the first time in recent memory. Now loneliness overwhelmed her. Just thinking about his lovemaking—his passionate, playful tenderness—brought a fresh surge of tears to her eyes. Without a doubt, she knew she’d never find such happiness again. She’d spend the rest of her life remembering last night and wondering what had happened to him. Pushing to a sitting position, she shoved her hair out of her eyes and tried not to think about it. The fire was dying down, and it could be quite a while before anyone came looking for her. In fact, the more she thought about it, the more she wondered how anyone would ever find her in this cave. Would it be wiser to return to the coach? Standing up, she crossed the cave and entered the narrow tunnel leading outside, and wondered if the sun had broken through the clouds. Before she’d gone very far, she realized something was wrong. Snow spilled into the narrow corridor, and the howl of the wind echoed against the stone.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold Reaching the end of the tunnel, she stared outside with growing panic. The snow hadn’t stopped. In fact, it was far worse now than it had been yesterday. She visually traced Zach’s footprints through the deep drifts, wondering why on earth he’d left. No one was coming for them. Zach would die of exposure before he’d gone more than a mile or two. She took a step forward, mad with fear, then gasped and shrank back as the cold cut through her. “Oh, Zach,” she murmured, fresh tears filling her eyes. “Come back. Come back to me.” * * * * * The last twenty yards of Zach’s journey yawned before him, seeming like a hundred miles. He was frozen to the bone, exhausted from battling the wind and snow. The thought of lying down, even if it meant never getting up again, sounded better by the moment. Thoughts of Bethany spurred him on. He’d find warmth in her arms, if he could get there. After what seemed an eternity, he finally retraced his footsteps to the cave entrance. “Bethany,” he called, stumbling down the narrow tunnel. “Bethany, I need your help.” She came running, her face lighting up at the sight of him for a split second before her expression turned to one of concern. “Zach! You’re frozen half to death.” “Grab my pack,” he muttered. “I went back to the coach to get us some more supplies.” He’d bundled more splinters of wood and the entire contents of the coach’s storage box in another rough, woolen blanket, but his arms were so numb he couldn’t lower it from his shoulder. Biting her lip, she struggled to take the heavy weight from his back. The pack slid off, landing on the cave floor with a clatter, breaking open and spilling its contents all over. Moaning, he sank to his knees, too tired to take another step. “Throw another p‐piece of wood on the fire,” he instructed, his
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold teeth chattering. “I’m s‐so c‐cold.” “I thought you’d left for good.” She picked up a few splintered pieces of the coach and carried them to the fire. “I was so worried about you.” Her concern warmed him, and he fumbled to unbutton his shirt. Before he’d managed more than the top two, Bethany had stoked the fire and was back at his side, brushing his hands away and accomplishing the task with brisk efficiency. She peeled the frozen fabric off his shoulders, then helped him shed his trousers and boots. When he was naked, she wrapped him in one of the warm, dry blankets and urged him over toward the fire. He hunkered down next to it, uncontrollable shivers racking his body. His feet were so cold he feared he’d gotten frostbite. “Let me help you,” she whispered, wrapping her arms around him and giving him her warmth. “Oh, Zach. What were you thinking? You could have died out there.” “We’d h‐have frozen without the w‐wood,” he explained. “And I found s‐some more food. There’s also a coffee pot, some coffee, and a few cups. And can you get me the bottle of whiskey? That m‐might help warm me up.” “Of course,” she assured him, searching through his bundle until she found the liquor. She handed it to him, then stood up with the coffee pot. “I’ll go fill this with snow and heat it up. We’ll have hot coffee. That should help.” He silently thanked the driver for his stash. Besides the coffee and whiskey, he’d found a loaf of bread, some more apples, a dozen cans of beans and peaches, and some beef jerky. He’d also found two more blankets and gathered all the wood he could carry. It should get them through a couple more days. Bethany returned with her coffee pot full of snow, and fussed with the fire for a moment, finding a place to heat it. He watched her, still half wondering if he’d really made it back or if this was just a dream and he was dying in the snow somewhere. If not for the pain streaking through his extremities, he would have thought the latter.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “It’s horrible out there.” He took a swig of the cheap whiskey and let it burn all the way down his gut—a strange sensation since the rest of him was still freezing. “We were lucky to find this cave. Coyotes have been at the bodies. They’re barely recognizable.” Bethany met his gaze with a look of utter adoration. “If you hadn’t come back for me, I would have died.” “Anyone else would have done the same.” Her gratitude made him uncomfortable. Christ, he hoped gratitude wasn’t all she felt for him. She shook her head with utter certainty. “No. Most men in your situation would have left me without a backward glance and worried about saving their own neck. You’re a good man, Zach. A very good man.” As she spoke, she moved back into his arms, holding him for all she was worth. A good man. It had been so long since anyone had looked at him as anything but a killer and a convict unworthy of respect or even common decency. Eyes burning with tears he’d never allow himself to shed, he pressed his lips against the soft cloud of her hair, shivering from both the cold and the strength of his emotions. Bethany held him without speaking until the coffee began to percolate. “Let me get you something hot to drink.” Moving away with reluctance, she bustled around, putting their meager supplies against the cave wall and stacking the firewood near the fire. Then she brought him a hot cup of coffee and a few pieces of jerky. “Eat something,” she urged. “You need to rebuild your strength.” He took the cup, letting the steam warm his face for a moment before he put it to his lips. The tin was hot, easing some of the chill from his fingertips. “Mmm, thank you, darlin’.” When she continued to hold out the jerky, he took it, even though he had no desire to eat. Perhaps she was right. The trip back to the coach had sapped every bit of his strength. Resolutely, he gnawed on the tough, peppery shoe‐leather tasting piece of meat. She watched him until she was certain he obeyed then turned away to shake the woodchips out of the new blanket and drape it in front of the
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold fire to dry. “The storm is bad, isn’t it?” “The worst I’ve ever seen,” he admitted grimly. “The snow is worse now than it was yesterday. Who knows how long it will last? I’m afraid you’re stuck here with me for a while.” “I don’t mind,” she said as she straightened their pallet. “I’m not in a hurry to reach Texas. I’m glad to have a few more days here with you.” “I’m glad, too. In fact, when I looked outside and saw it was still snowing, I felt like I’d been granted a reprieve from the gallows.” She gave him a quick, horrified glance. “They’re not going to hang you, are they?” He gave a rough laugh. “It was a figure of speech, but it’s not impossible. That’s why I have to leave, eventually. I don’t want to involve you any further in the mess I’ve made of my life.” “What if I want to be involved?” The purity of her earnest green gaze slayed him. “You don’t even know me. If you did, you’d never say such things. You’d never let me hold you and touch you.” He’d meant to scare her away, but she didn’t look scared. Instead, she gave him a gentle smile. “I know you, Zach. I know you better than I knew David when we wed.” He didn’t want to argue, not when he wanted to believe every word she said. And he had to admit what she said made sense. Though he’d known her less than two days, he felt closer to her than he’d ever felt to Hannah. Or perhaps it was just because he’d been alone for so long and their circumstances were so dire. “I just hope you don’t come to regret being so good to me.” With a sigh, he drank the rest of his coffee and crawled toward the pallet, letting her tuck the covers around him. “I’m going to rest for a while, darlin’. Is that all right?” “Of course,” she whispered, pressing a tender kiss to his brow. “Rest, sweetheart. I’ll be here when you wake up.”
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Chapter Six Bethany’s unlikely hero slept. She knelt beside him, tracing his weary, beard‐roughened features with her gaze. It terrified her to think how close he’d come to freezing to death today. He’d risked his life to save her. Not just once, but twice. No one had ever put her needs before their own. Her relationship with David had always been one sided. She’d always been the one to give, and he’d taken from her until she had nothing left. Zach would never treat a woman he loved in such a way. He’d already proven he could keep her safe and make her feel cherished. She’d meant it when she’d told him she knew him better already than she’d ever known David. With a sigh, she moved away and forced herself to eat half of one of the sandwiches left over from the sack lunches. She drank a few sips of the nasty whiskey and then climbed beneath the blankets, pressing as close to Zach as she could His skin was still freezing cold to the touch. Only total exhaustion could have allowed him to fall asleep in such a state. Shivering, she chafed his fingers and toes until they began to warm. When the chill had faded somewhat, she snuggled close, determined to get some rest while he did. They’d both been up most of the previous night, and the day had been long and wearying. Within moments, she was fast asleep. * * * * *
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold When Bethany awoke, she had no idea how long she’d slept. Zach curled around her, his big body warm at last. Cocooned beneath the weight of half a dozen blankets, she was almost too warm. Still, she didn’t want to move and risk waking him. She wanted him to sleep as long as he needed. If he’d been on the run for weeks, she doubted he’d gotten a good night’s sleep since before he escaped; perhaps even longer than that. As she lay in the circle of his arms, she tried to think of a way out of the mess he’d gotten himself into. If only the lawmen on his trail would believe he’d died in the wreck… She sat up, dislodging the blankets as she remembered something Zach had said when he’d returned from his latest supply mission. Coyotes have been at the bodies. They’re barely recognizable. Zach gave a soft moan of complaint as the cold air rushed in and touched his bare skin, but when she covered him up, he sighed and went back to sleep. The coach driver had been a young, dark‐haired man. How badly had the coyotes torn at the bodies? Was there a possibility the driver could be mistaken for Zach? What if he was wearing the shackles? Pushing to her feet, she padded barefoot across the cave, shivering as she entered the tunnel. When she reached the end, she stared outside, realizing it was morning already. It was still snowing, but the wind had died down. The tracks Zach had made in the snow were still discernible, leaving a trail she could follow with relative ease. If she could make it back to the coach and find the shackles, she could put them on the driver’s body. It had to be done now, before it stopped snowing, so it wasn’t obvious it had been done after the wreck. Perhaps she could grab some things from her trunk, too. The wind wasn’t blowing anymore, so it shouldn’t be too hard. She could do it, for Zach. Lord knew he’d done far more for her. Taking a deep, fortifying breath, she went back inside the cave to get dressed. * * * * *
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold When Zach discovered Bethany had left, he went out of his mind with worry. Where the hell had she gone? Had she run away from him? Would she rather die in the snow than spend another night in his arms? As he pulled on his damp clothes, he cursed himself for having slept so long. It had been years since he’d slept so deeply. Having Bethany at his side had allowed him to do so. Even in his sleep, he’d known she wasn’t a threat. But her disappearance rattled him. Had she gone for help? Had she decided she wanted nothing to do with a murderer? A convict? A man who’d never had any right to put his hands on her in the first place? His fears dissipated when he reached the cave entrance and saw the storm had abated. The snow still fell fast and hard, but the bitter wind had quieted. She’d followed his tracks, back in the direction the coach. Girding himself to go back out into the cold, he followed. He hadn’t gone very far when he caught sight of her, about fifty yards away, struggling to pull something large and heavy through the waist‐deep snow behind her. “Bethany,” he yelled, relief and anger warring within him. “What the hell are you doing?” “Come help,” she called. “This thing is heavy.” Fuming, he stomped toward her. Had she risked her life to go and retrieve a trunk full of fripperies? He hadn’t thought her vain, but now he reminded himself he didn’t know her at all. She hadn’t managed to move the trunk very far by the time he reached her, and he wondered how long she’d been at this. She was stubborn; he’d give her that. “What’s in here that’s so important?” he groused as he reached her side. “Blankets. Pillows. Some honey and preserves. Some heavy clothing—coats and gloves and such.” She extended her hands, wiggling her fingers to show she was wearing gloves. “If we’re going to be living in the cave for a few more days, I thought they would come in handy.” He stared at her, noting the shy pride on her flushed cheeks.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold Though she was panting from her exertion and had to be half‐frozen, she seemed in high spirits. He sighed, raking his hand through his hair. “Darlin’, what were you thinking? I could have gone after this. There was no reason for you to do it yourself.” She smiled and threw herself into his arms, nearly knocking him down with her exuberance. “This trunk isn’t the main reason I went back to the coach.” He hugged her, breathing in her light, flowery scent, thanking God once again that she was all right. “Why did you go, then?” She pulled away, reaching once again for the trunk handle. “Help me move this while I tell you. I want to get back to the cave as soon as possible. It’s freezing out here.” He shook his head, smiling at the little featherbrain, but reached down and took the handle from her. “I can get it. You just talk.” She looked as though she was going to protest, but he gave her a stern look and she complied with a laugh. “All right. But if you need a rest, let me know.” “Just talk.” He gave the trunk a mighty pull, surprised to find it glided pretty well over the compacted snow. She watched him for a few moments, then fell into step behind him. “When I woke up, I started thinking about what you said last night. About the coyotes having been at the bodies?” He turned to look at her, and she shuddered. “It was horrible, but you were right. It’s impossible to tell what they once looked like. So I found the shackles and put them on the driver.” “You did what?” He stopped, staring at her in stunned disbelief. She nodded, looking hopeful and so sweet it broke his heart. “It wasn’t easy, but I remembered where you were standing when you tossed them to the ground. Anyway, I dug through the snow until I found them. I figure when help comes, I’ll just tell them you and the marshal were killed in the wreck, and the driver went for help and never came back. I don’t think they’ll look too hard. They have no reason not to believe me. Then, in a few weeks, you can assume a new name and find me in Texas.” Overwhelmed, he sank down on the trunk, aghast and amazed. He
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Chapter Seven Bethany reached the cave a full quarter of an hour before Zach. She used the time to strip out of her damp clothes and warm herself by the fire, still fuming from the argument they’d had outside. How dare he infer she didn’t know her own mind? That what she felt for him was a product of fear and helplessness? Hadn’t she proven she could be resourceful? She’d made it all the way to the coach, dragged her trunk almost all the way back to the cave, and yet he acted as though she was a silly little woman who needed to be rescued from her own stupid feelings. When Zach trudged into the cave, pulling the heavy trunk, she didn’t even turn to look at him. He thought she’d say please and thank you to a grizzly? Well, she didn’t intend to say please and thank you to him. Never again. Let him go back to prison. Perhaps then he’d see the folly of his foolish pride! Her senses thrummed with awareness as she listened to him open the trunk and sort through its contents. She’d never realized how hard it could be to ignore someone. After a long time, he moved toward her, draping the warm folds of one of her grandmother’s quilts around her shoulders. “Don’t be angry, darlin’.” He knelt before her, staring at her with unmistakable concern. “I didn’t intend to hurt you. Don’t you know how much you mean to me? I couldn’t bear it if something happened to you
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold because of me.” She let her pent‐up breath escape in a shuddering sigh, unable to hold on to her ire when faced with his sweetness. “I’m terrified you don’t want to be with me, Zach. I fear all this has been a convenience, a way to pass the time until the weather clears.” He gave a rough laugh and sank back on his heels. “What do you want me to say? I love you?” He shook his head. “I’ve only known you for three days. How can you expect me to promise a future when I don’t even know if I’ll have one?” Her eyes welled with tears. She huddled deeper within the folds of the blanket, feeling as though she’d never be warm again. “Of course I don’t expect your love. But I just offered you a way out, a way for you to have a future, and you act as though you’d rather go back to jail than rely upon me to keep your secrets.” He shoved to his feet with an exasperated sound and strode to the other side of the cave as though he couldn’t put enough distance between them. “Aren’t you listening to me? I would like nothing more than to do what you’ve suggested. I’d love a chance to see you again, to walk down the street with you and not have to look over my shoulder for fear someone was watching. I just don’t want to buy my freedom at the cost of yours!” She cringed as his shouted words echoed against the walls of the cave. Part of her knew he was right. She was being unreasonable. He’d made it clear he’d only objected to her plan because he didn’t want to put her in danger. But deep down, she’d wanted to hear him say those words he’d mockingly thrown in her face. She wanted him to promise they would be together, not just for a few more days, but forever. She’d wanted to know he loved her as much as she’d fallen in love with him. * * * * * Zach spent the rest of the afternoon going through their supplies, careful not to let his gaze fall upon his angry little companion. She hadn’t
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “Come here and see what I found. Bring some wood.” She poked her head through the hole, a mule‐headed, irritated look on her face. “What are you doing?” “There’s a hot spring in here. You can take a bath, if you’d like, and this second cavern is much warmer. Warm enough we’ll only need the fire for light.” Her angry expression slipped, her natural exuberance bursting out in a tentative smile. “Really? A hot bath?” He nodded. “I saw some soap in your trunk. Why don’t you grab it and get started while I move all our stuff?” “I’ll be right back,” she promised, disappearing from view. He started after her, filled with sudden optimism. Perhaps once she’d had a nice, relaxing soak in the hot water, she’d forgive him. God knew the prospect put him in a good mood. In fact, the mere thought of watching her bathe, watching her run that sweet‐smelling bar of soap over her soft, pale skin, aroused him to a fever pitch. Once back in the main cave, he set about gathering all the things he’d organized so carefully less than an hour ago. He made three trips, stopping after the first one to help Bethany light a fire in the second cave. By the time he finished, Bethany had already slipped naked beneath the steaming depths of the pool. “How deep is it?” he asked, coming to stand at the edge. “Can you touch the bottom?” She nodded, giving him a look of rapturous pleasure. “It’s about three feet deep,” she answered. “And it feels heavenly.” Holding her gaze, he peeled away his damp clothing and sat down on the stone ledge, dangling his feet in the warm water. He drew in a sharp breath as the heat seeped into his frozen toes. “Don’t be a chicken,” she teased, her good humor obviously restored. “Come all the way in.” Grimacing, he did as she’d commanded, sinking down until everything but his head was submerged. “Mmm. You’re right. It feels wonderful.” “I was starting to think I’d never be warm again.” She glided toward him until less than a foot separated them. “Too bad we didn’t
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold discover this earlier.” He nodded, staring at her with unconcealed hunger. She’d dunked her head, and now her golden hair hung in heavy, wet spirals across her bare shoulders; droplets of water glistened on her long lashes. He wanted to lick it off her, inch by lovely inch. “Turn around,” she whispered. “I’ll wash your back.” He did as she asked, rising up a bit so she could soap his back, trembling with arousal as her soft hands moved over his skin. God, it felt good to be pampered. Once she’d finished with his back, she moved around him, soaping his shoulders, arms and chest. He held still, closing his eyes, more relaxed than he’d been in years. It could be like this always, a little voice in the back of his mind whispered. All he had to do was let her follow through with her plan. He could bury Zach Price forever and become someone new—someone who had the right to ask a woman like Bethany to be his wife. “My turn,” she said after she’d washed everything above the water line. She pressed the soap into his hand, and he opened his eyes and looked at her, taking in the arousal shimmering in her lovely green eyes. Despite their earlier argument, despite everything she knew of him, she still wanted him. He took the soap without a word, feeling behind him until he found a ledge in the rocks. Sitting down, he pulled her into his arms, shuddering at the delicious silkiness of her wet skin against his own. She leaned against his shoulder, allowing her beautiful breasts to break free of the water. He soaped them first, loving the way her slick, smooth skin felt beneath his hands, loving the way her nipples puckered into hard little points, stabbing his palms with each pass of the soap. After a long while she turned in his arms, straddling his thighs as she caught his mouth in a searching kiss. He dropped the soap on the rocks behind him, buried his hands in her hair, and returned her kiss in full measure, drowning in the sweet taste of her. All the anger and frustration of the last few hours fell away, and he knew he’d been lying to her—lying to himself—when he’d said he couldn’t
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold love her after only two days. In truth, he thought he’d loved her since the first moment he’d set eyes upon her, or at least since she’d freed him from his shackles. Groaning, he broke the kiss and slid his hands down her sides, clasping her hips and driving deep within her, burying himself to the hilt in her tight, welcoming warmth. She gasped and met his gaze, biting her lip as he began to thrust in a smooth, languid rhythm, determined to make this last a very long time. Dipping his head, he caught one of her nipples between his lips, biting gently and then drawing her into his mouth, suckling as she wrapped her arms around his neck. “Oh, Zach,” she murmured, her voice husky and strained. “That feels so good.” The sound of his name on her lips broke his control. His thrusts became wild and hard, erratic, as the pleasure tore through him, making him grit his teeth and struggle to keep from exploding before she did. Reaching between them, he found the sweet little bud of arousal and rubbed it, desperate to give her as much pleasure as she’d given him. She cried out, stiffening against him, the contractions of her orgasm milking him into his own. “Bethany,” he moaned and let himself go, holding her tightly as his vision blurred and his world disintegrated around him.
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Chapter Eight They stayed in the pool until their skin was water logged and wrinkled, locked in each other’s embrace. Unwilling to ruin the magic of the moment with promises or recriminations, Bethany rested her head against Zach’s shoulder, her earlier fears receding in the wake of his tender lovemaking. He might not be willing to say the words, perhaps he hadn’t even admitted it to himself, but she knew he loved her. He’d shown it in his every word and action. She realized now he’d been telling the truth when he’d said he’d rejected her plan because he didn’t want to see her risk her own freedom for the sake of his. But how could she make him see she was more than willing to take the risk? After the passion and tenderness she’d found in his arms, consigning her to a life without it would be worse than any prison sentence. In fact, the mere thought of going without this—without him—for the rest of her life, was more tragedy than she thought she could bear. How could she live the rest of her life, knowing he was out there somewhere, either jailed or on the run, worrying about his safety and missing him with every passing second? The answer was simple—she couldn’t. Somehow, she had to make him agree to her plan. With a sigh, he lifted her off his lap, waiting until she found her footing before he released her. Then he pulled himself out of the water.
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold “I’ve got to get out before I turn into a prune.” She glided to the edge of the pool and handed him one of the towels she’d retrieved from her trunk. “What luxury. Steaming hot baths and feather pillows. I think I’d be happy to stay here forever.” Zach frowned and wrapped the towel around his lean waist. “We’ll run out of food and wood in a few days. I doubt you’ll be quite so comfortable here then.” Men, she thought with a disgruntled sigh. They were always so literal. Couldn’t he just let himself pretend for a while? She lifted herself from the pool and toweled herself dry, then slipped into the warm flannel nightgown and thick socks she’d found in her trunk. She passed another pair of socks to Zach and then started making a bed near the fire. It was warm enough in this cave she used the majority of the blankets as padding beneath them, figuring the two heavy quilts from her trunk would be enough to cover them. “I’m going to sleep,” she informed Zach, still a little miffed with him. She slid beneath the blankets and rested her head upon one of the soft, feather pillows, warm and comfortable for the first time since the wreck. Zach dropped the towel and slid into bed beside her, wearing nothing but the socks. “I made you mad again, didn’t I?” He nuzzled her neck with his lips, pulling her into the warmth of his embrace. “I’m sorry, darlin’. I guess I’ve just forgotten how to talk to people. Spending five years in a room by yourself tends to make a man a poor conversationalist.” The thought of all he’d been through stemmed her irritation, and she snuggled against him, feeling stupid and petty. “It’s all right. I’m sorry I keep trying to force you into turning our association into something more permanent.” He hugged her tight. “I’m honored you care enough about me to consider a future together. I really am. I just don’t think you’ve thought it all through. Even if we succeeded in making the law believe I died in the wreck, how would we live? I’ve got nothing, Bethany. I know you’re used to a hell of a lot more than I could ever give you.” She pulled back a little, staring up at him through the flickering
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold light. “Oh, Zach. Is that all that’s bothering you?” She laughed a bit self‐consciously. “Money is the least of my worries. I’m rich. David left me more money than I could ever spend. We could go anywhere, do anything we wanted.” “You’re rich?” He shook his head, a strange smile lingering on his lips. “I don’t believe it. Every time I come up with an obstacle, you find a way to shove it out of our path.” “Why are you trying so hard to find obstacles?” she asked. “Why can’t you just accept what I’m trying to offer you and never look back?” “Because I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve a woman like you or your husband’s money or a second chance at life. Don’t you understand? I once had everything I could want, and I lost it. I let it slip right through my hands.” “It didn’t slip away,” she reminded him. “It was stolen from you in the most vicious, violent way imaginable. You’ve been dealt far too many bad hands, Zach. I think it’s past time for your luck to change.” “Maybe,” he whispered, gathering her close. “Maybe you’re right.” * * * * * Zach headed for the cave with a spring in his step, despite the deep snow, which made walking so difficult. The clouds had cleared, the sun was shining, and he was certain the two gifts he carried would make Bethany’s eyes light up with delight. He figured nine days had passed since the accident. Which, unless he was mistaken, made today Christmas Eve. Bethany hadn’t said a word about it; he wasn’t even sure she’d been keeping track. But he wanted to do something to make tonight special for her. “Hey, darlin’, I’m home,” he called as he entered the passageway. “And I’ve brought presents.” Home. It had been a slip of the tongue, but he didn’t regret it. The cave did feel like home. He imagined any place on earth would feel that way to him now, as long as Bethany was there. “Zach! Are you all right? I heard a gunshot, and I was so worried…”
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold Bethany’s voice trailed off as he entered the first cavern dragging the small pine tree he’d cut down in one hand, and the pheasant he’d shot in the other. “Merry Christmas, Bethany.” She clapped her hands together, smiling in delight. “A Christmas tree? How beautiful! And you’ve been hunting!” Her obvious happiness made the hours spent trudging through the snow worthwhile. God, he’d do anything to keep her smiling. “I thought maybe you could find something in your trunk to decorate the tree with, and our food supplies are getting pretty low, so I figured we deserved something special for Christmas.” “Thank you.” She rushed forward and enveloped him in a crushing hug. “I didn’t even realize it was Christmas.” “You’re welcome.” He bent to give her a sweet, lingering kiss. When he pulled away, he smiled. “I can’t believe I get to share the day with my own personal angel.” She blushed and hit him playfully in the shoulder. “I’m not an angel. Didn’t I prove that to you last night?” He laughed, thinking of the wild lovemaking they’d shared. “You proved you are an angel because I’m quite certain I died and went to heaven.” Grinning, she took the tree out of his hands and dragged it toward the second cave. “You’ll have to show me how to cook that bird. I’m afraid I’ve never prepared one.” “I’ll do it,” he told her. “You just decorate the tree.” The next hour passed quickly as Bethany decorated the tree, using small bits of ribbon and lace, and he roasted the bird over the fire. She hummed Christmas carols beneath her breath as she worked, and a bone deep contentment seeped into him as he watched her. She said she’d be happy living here forever, and he could almost believe her. Lord knew he could. To him, this cave with its bubbling hot spring and the few luxuries from Bethany’s trunk was paradise. He’d lived five years with much less. At last she stepped back, surveying her work with unmistakable
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold pride. “There. I think it looks beautiful. Don’t you?” The crooked little tree leaned against the cave wall, bits of ribbon and lace hanging over its drooping branches. He smiled and met her hopeful gaze with complete honesty. “It’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.” “Thank you,” she murmured, crossing the cave to his side. “Thank you for bringing it. It means more to me than you can ever imagine.” “I’m glad you like it. I wish I could offer you more. I’d drape you in diamonds and pearls if I could.” “I’d rather have your kisses than all the diamonds in the world.” Leaning forward, she pressed her lips to his, showing him without words exactly what she meant. After a long while he drew back, knowing if he didn’t put a stop to the kiss they’d end up burning the bird. “I made you a present. Would you like it tonight or would you like to wait until morning?” “Oh, Zach.” She bent forward and gave him another swift kiss. “Tonight, please. I’ve never been good at waiting until Christmas morning.” Reaching into his pocket, he drew out his gift, which he’d haphazardly wrapped in a small scrap of red cloth, which had once been a handkerchief. He’d spent the last few nights whittling it for her after she’d fallen asleep, feeling the need to give her something tangible to remember him by. With a look of awe, she unwrapped the tiny wooden angel. An unfamiliar sense of pride shimmered through him as tears welled in her wide, green eyes. He’d always been good at making things with his hands, and this was one of his best. “It’s wonderful,” she whispered. “So much detail... When did you ever find the time?” “I made it while you slept. I’m glad you like it.” “I love it.” She threw herself into his arms with another one of those shows of exuberant affection he loved so much. “It’s the best present anyone has ever given me.” He hugged her, pressing his lips against the fragrant softness of her
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold hair. “Being here with you for Christmas is best present I’ve ever gotten, so I guess we’re even.” She pulled away, cupping his chin in her hand, and gazed into his eyes. “I love you, Zach. I love you more than I ever thought possible.” His heart stalled for an instant before he started to give her the response he knew she wanted to hear, but she pressed her fingertips against his lips, shaking her head. “No,” she whispered. “Don’t say it until you mean it. My love is my present to you. I don’t expect you to return it. No matter where you go, or what happens to you, I’ll always be thinking about you.” Her sweet words made him want to profess his own love, but he didn’t think she’d believe him now. So he simply nodded and brushed his lips against her fingertips. “I’ll always remember you, too. No matter what happens.”
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Chapter Nine The next few days passed with breathtaking swiftness. Bethany basked in Zach’s company, trying to enjoy each moment, unwilling to mention the future or the decisions, which had to be made. But behind every new conversation, beneath each night she lay sated in his arms, lurked the knowledge that their time together was short. Their supplies were dwindling. All the food was gone. They’d eaten the last can of beans for supper last night. Zach had made several hunting trips during the last few days, but he’d had no luck. Though he’d brought back an armful of wood with each trip, they’d been forced to spend the better part of the day in darkness, lighting a fire only at mealtimes to conserve what little they had. Late in the afternoon of their thirteenth day in the cave, Bethany sat in the first cave, bundled in blankets as she waited for Zach to return from hunting, when she heard several deep voices shouting. She couldn’t make out the words, but she knew it wasn’t Zach, and there was more than one man. Her blood ran cold as she scooted across the cave floor. She crawled down the tunnel and stuck her head cautiously outside to see what was going on. As she’d feared, no less than three armed men were making their way toward the cave, no doubt following the trail she and Zach had forged during their many trips back to the wreck site. She cast a quick glance around the rest of the canyon, praying Zach would stay hidden. Her heart broke when she realized she wouldn’t have
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold the opportunity to say good‐bye to him. But perhaps fortune was smiling on her after all, because if he wasn’t here, he couldn’t stop her from protecting him. Sighing, she pushed to her feet and waved, trying to draw the men’s attention. “I’m here,” she called. “Oh, thank God! I thought no one was ever going to come!” The man in the lead waved his hat in the air. “We see you, ma’am. Stay right there. We’re coming.” Bethany waved back then ducked back in the cave, panic sweeping through her as she thought of all she had to accomplish in the ten minutes or so before the men reached her. Somehow she had to drag enough of her things back to the first cave to make them believe she’d managed to survive all this time here by herself. She also had to write a quick note and leave some money for Zach, telling him what had happened and to beg him to find her in Texas as soon as he could. Brushing away a few annoying tears, she set to work, preparing to give the best performance of her life. * * * * * Zach watched from beneath a small stand of piñon trees as the small band of rescuers loaded Bethany on the back of a horse and took her away from him. It had been one of the worst hours of his life—seeing them arrive, knowing he couldn’t return to say good‐bye to Bethany without being seen. He’d crouched in his hiding place like the worst sort of coward, vacillating between letting them capture him and knowing if he did nothing, if he stayed hidden, Bethany would put her plan into motion, ensuring his freedom. Perhaps he’d known all along this would happen—that when the time came, he’d be too weak to keep her from saving his worthless hide. Long after they’d disappeared from his view, Zach remained where he was, shivering and starving, feeling as though his world had come to an end. How could he bear a life without Bethany in it? But how could he do
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold as she wanted and live off her charity, knowing there was always a chance someone might recognize him, which would put her in danger? As dusk fell in a brilliant array of red and gold, he pushed himself to his feet, gasping as his cramped muscles came back to life. He stumbled back to the cave, wondering if his problem would be solved for him. He had a gun and the clothes on his back. Several hundred miles lay between him and Bethany’s sister’s house in Texas. He didn’t know if he could make it, even if he tried. The first cave was empty, but Bethany had put a few more logs on the empty fire circle they’d first used, obviously trying to convince her rescuers she’d spent all her time here, drawing their attention away from the second cave. Using a makeshift torch out of one of the logs, he made his way to the second cave, glad to see she’d left him most of the blankets and some of her warm winter clothes. Using his torch, he lit the remaining wood in the fire circle. Shivering, he stripped off his wet, freezing clothes and stretched them out on one of the warm rocks near the pool, but stopped when he saw a letter and a small pouch sitting near the edge. Bending down, he discovered the pouch held a small fortune in gold coins, more than enough to give him a fresh start wherever he might choose to go. Unaccountably annoyed by the gift, he grabbed the letter and stepped into the steaming pool, holding it up to the flickering firelight so he could read Bethany’s parting words. Dear Zach, I don’t have much time, not nearly enough to say everything I wish, but I think you know how much I love you, how much I want to build a life with you. I know you’ll be angry with me for proceeding with my plan, but I’m going to do it anyway. Forgive yourself and trust in me. You don’t have to run any more. My sister’s address is written at the bottom of this page. Please come and find me. But if you feel that you cannot, or if you don’t care as much for me as you’ve pretended, then please take the money I’ve
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold left for you and go somewhere safe. All I want is your happiness. Love, Bethany Blinking back a rush of impotent tears, Zach tossed the letter far away from the water so it wouldn’t get wet, then submerged himself beneath the steaming depths, holding his breath until his lungs threatened to burst. By the time he broke the surface, he’d managed to gain some semblance of control over his rioting emotions. He had no idea what he’d done to deserve such selfless generosity on his angel’s part, but the time had come to make some very difficult decisions. Did he spend the rest of his life trying to show her how much he loved her, trying to become worthy of her faith in him, or did he deprive himself of her love in a selfless gesture of his own?
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Chapter Ten March 1, 1872 – San Antonio, Texas “Look at this gown, Beth. Isn’t it the most gorgeous thing you’ve ever seen?” Caroline gave Bethany a coaxing smile as she took her hand and led her toward the dressmaker’s shop. “It would look perfect on you. And it’s been more than a year since David’s death. Far past time for you to shed your mourning clothes.” Bethany dug in her heels, resisting her sister’s forced good cheer. “I don’t want a new dress,” she protested. “Wherever would I wear it?” “You could come to one of the dances at the fort,” Caroline said, her patience obviously wearing thin. “It wouldn’t hurt you to meet some new people. There are several handsome, lonely gentlemen in the officer’s ranks.” With a sigh, Bethany brushed a loose tendril of hair out of her eyes and met her sister’s gaze. “If you’re tired of having me underfoot, I can rent a room somewhere here in town. You needn’t try to marry me off.” “I don’t want to get rid of you,” Caroline cried. “I love having you around. I simply can’t bear to see you so morose. I want you to be happy. I want to see you fall in love with someone who is strong and healthy, someone who will love you for something more than your nursing skills.” At her sister’s words, thoughts of Zach overwhelmed Bethany. She shoved her hand in her pocket, closing her fingers around the angel he’d carved. It had become her talisman, the only thing she had to prove those
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold magical days in the cave had happened. She’d come so close to telling her sister about the fleeting love she’d found in the aftermath of her wreck, but each time she’d managed to bite her tongue. No matter how much she wanted to talk to someone about what had happened, she couldn’t risk jeopardizing his freedom when he came to find her. But as the days dragged by with no word from him, she feared she held her tongue in vain. He’d had plenty of time to come to her. Had something happened to him? Or had he decided he didn’t want a future, which included her? Shoving such dangerous thoughts aside, she managed to give her sister a tremulous smile. “Thank you, Caro. I know you mean well, but I’m just not ready. I don’t know if I ever will be.” Caroline shook her head with a sigh of exasperation. “Well, at least accompany me inside. Charlie said I could have something new, and I intend to take advantage of his sudden generosity.” Though Caroline and her Charlie struggled to make it on his meager officer’s pay, they seemed happy. Bethany was glad to see her sister had found so much more in her marriage than Bethany had found in her own, but she was a bit jealous, too. Theirs was the kind of relationship she’d shared with Zach, and watching them together made her miss him even more. She pressed the hand not holding her angel to her stomach. In truth, there was another reason why she’d avoided the dressmaker’s. The small swelling of Zach’s child was barely perceptible, but soon she’d be unable to hide it. Zach had been right all those months ago—her inability to conceive had been David’s fault, not her own. Widowed more than a year, her pregnancy would be hard to explain. She had no desire to bring such a scandal down upon her respectable sister, so she feared she’d soon be forced to do what she’d begged Zach to do—change her identity and move somewhere new. But still she remained, hoping Zach would come for her. She didn’t want to raise his child alone. “Excuse me, ma’am,” a deep voice murmured from behind her. “Might I have a moment of your time?”
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold She froze, and the blood drained from her face, leaving her a bit lightheaded. She’d heard that voice before, whispering her name in the dark with sweet passion. She glanced over at Caroline, afraid to turn around, afraid she was imagining it all. Caroline’s eyes widened as she stared at a spot behind Bethany, convincing her someone stood there. “Mrs. Sinclair?” Zach asked again. “Perhaps you don’t remember me. My name is Jack Pierce. I was a friend of your husband’s, back in Colorado.” Turning, she found herself gazing into her lover’s vivid blue eyes. He looked wonderful. His long, unkempt hair had been trimmed above the collar of his proper gray suit. He looked a perfect gentleman, no longer the outlaw she’d come to know so well. “Jack Pierce?” she whispered, loving the way his new identity rhymed with his real name. “Of course I remember you.” He gave her a slow smile filled with hope. “I’m glad you remember me. I feared I’d let too much time pass.” She shook her head as ecstatic tears stung her eyes. She glanced at her sister, who looked on with great interest. “Would you mind giving Mr. Pierce and me a few moments alone? We have a lot of catching up to do.” Caroline smiled, obviously understanding all Bethany wasn’t saying. “Of course not. I’ll be in the dressmaker’s. Take as long as you want.” The moment Caroline turned away, Zach grabbed Bethany’s hand and pulled her through the crowded street. He ducked inside a narrow gap between two buildings, pulling her deep in the shadows, so they were afforded some privacy. “Jack,” Bethany cried, cupping his beloved face and staring into his eyes. “My beautiful, beautiful Jack.” “Ah, Bethany,” he whispered, lifting her in his arms and trapping her between the rough wooden wall and the solid strength of his body. “God, darlin’. I’ve missed you so much.” “I thought you weren’t going to come,” she sobbed, tangling her fingers in the silky strands of his dark hair. “I’d almost given up hope.” “I tried to stay away,” he assured her, lifting her skirts and guiding
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold her legs around his lean hips, seating the hard press of his straining erection against her molten core, making her gasp with longing. It seemed an eternity since she’d held him deep within her body. “I tried to be strong. I tried to walk away. But in the end, I couldn’t bear the thought of living without you.” “I didn’t want you to be strong.” She reached between them and unfastened his trousers, freeing his thick length to her questing hands. He gasped in pleasure, covering her mouth with his, kissing her with undeniable hunger as she guided him home, taking him deep inside her. He broke the kiss and stared down at her with wonder in his beautiful blue eyes. “I love you, darlin’. I have since the first moment I saw you.” “I love you, too,” she whispered, tears choking her voice. She’d waited a lifetime to hear those words from this man. Zach or Jack, she didn’t care. She loved him either way. As though he’d been waiting for her words of love, he began to move within her, thrusting deep and hard while he kissed her with all the passionate tenderness he’d always shown her. His kiss muffled her sobs of ecstasy as she clenched around his hard length. Seconds later he joined her, spilling his seed with a shuddering cry. He held her tight, his forehead pressed against hers as they struggled to regain their breath. With a regretful sigh, he lowered her legs then fastened his trousers as she shook out her skirts. With a soft huff of laughter, he leaned forward and gave her another lingering kiss. “God, darlin’. You don’t know how bad I’ve needed that.” Heat tinged her face as she returned his kiss with her whole heart. “Oh, I think I know. I’ve needed it, too. I’ve missed you so much. I felt like I was half dead inside without you in my arms.” He brushed her cheek with his knuckles, and gave her a sad smile. “I’m sorry I took so long. I guess I knew all along I couldn’t stay away. I just wanted to make sure the law was off my tail, that they really believed your story. It took seeing my own grave to convince me we could make this work.” “I’m glad you didn’t wait any longer,” she whispered. Unable to
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Snow Angel by Diana Bold keep her secret for even one more second, she took his hand and pressed it to her stomach, meeting his inquiring gaze as her tears fell. “You were right. It wasn’t my fault I couldn’t have a child with David.” “A baby? Are you telling me you’re pregnant?” His eyes filled with answering tears, erasing any doubt that he might not want this. She nodded. “You’ve given me everything I ever wanted, Zach. Now it’s time for me to give you a child.” “Jack,” he corrected with a silly smile. Holding her gaze, he sank to one knee and stared up at her with unmistakable love shining in his eyes. “Marry me, Beth. Make me the happiest man in the world.” “Of course.” She flung herself into his arms. “Of course I’ll marry you. “ He held her tight, his tears mixing with her own. “I love you, my little snow angel. I love you so much.” The End
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Author Bio Diana wrote her first book in elementary school, and has been writing ever since. For the last ten years, she’s been seriously pursuing a writing career, while also juggling a full‐time job as a police dispatcher. She’s won or finaled in over a dozen writing contests, including RWA’s Golden Heart. She lives in a small Colorado town with her wonderful husband and three teen‐aged boys. Visit her website at www.dianabold.com.
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